rant, a diary i guess
⠀02.03.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀I wish I woke up when I originally did today.... Instead I slept in auu.... I'll try setting more alarms and sleeping early (I say while I write this at 5am) I'll sleep soon! I promise ! 5:50am finally goin to bed ahaa more pastes will be decorated soon promise !
⠀⠀The same day but in the afternoon! I slept at 6am auhh,,,,,
⠀02.04.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀1:02am abahaaa …. Today im really happy! i got a Shadow plushie !!! I'm gonna bring him everywhere I love him so much we’re cuddling as I'm writing this hehwuwuwywyha okok I will sleep now cus its what shadow would tell me to do :3
⠀02.06.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀I GOT /ALICE !!!! YESS AFTER SO LONG EUEUWWAAAA Alice Yabusame you will always be loved <3 EHHEUIAGHSHA Ok okokok HJDHAJK Ok ALSO Im going to make /lifeform a daily shadow picture thing eheee ~
⠀02.08.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀New interest unlocked... sighhh I love and hate MLB its one of those interests where I have to rewrite the entire thing in my head to love it... (NGNL mentioned) ALSO I've loved him for a while but now I really love him ahahaa.... Luka my love you beautiful man I will save you from this GOD AWFUL show !! Dogparkians Im so sorry for what you all have to witness..
⠀02.10.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀Tonight my baby sister STOLE my Shadow plush from me (˃̣̣̥ᯅ˂̣̣̥) While she is adorable when playing with him im scared that when I recieve him back in the morning he will be a victim of chip dust and strawberry stains </3
⠀02.12.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀Im freaking out and I dont know why jahshdhdhhhhhjjjjjjjjj Im just hugging shadow rn and takinf deep breaths and hoping ill be okay :(
I’m feeling a bit better :3 Ehhehshsgd Shadow really helped a lot <3 I might make this shadow themed to help comfort me more lololol
⠀02.17.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀I’ve lost all confidence in any of my skills + my pastebin hyperfix is going away >_<
⠀03.03.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀I am one whole year older today ouuhgghhhh......... Being 15 on the internet is such a big jump to people and makes me dread the "responsibility" others will put on me. "You should be old enough to know this" to a 15 y/o and "Well they're young" to a 14 y/o.... scary stuff yk? At the end of the day I wish for people to view me as a child who is still learning and changing everyday and not as a "mini adult" who will understand everything ykk??
⠀03.14.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀When I look back on my life I actually get really sad. I should’ve persued the things I wanted to do instead of following the crowd. I would’ve made more friends like myself and would’ve been happier. Im only 15 and I feel like this, maybe thats an early sign that I “failed” this life. I wish I participated in sports and I wish I had done band and joined the drama club. I wish I just did more. It sounds silly since its coming from a kid
⠀05.27.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀Waaoww it's been a while lol Hello! I think when I wrote in here last time it sounded sad but It's not really supposed to be. lol. it was just a place to get thoughts out cus if I don't I'll forget about them 'n be mad at myself for forgetting lol... I don't think I'm deep or anything.
⠀06.17.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀Hmmm haiiooo! For anyone who keeps up with this page, and for whoever cares, I haven’t really been doing well mentally awhh…. I’ve taken a break from bundlrs and am focusing more on rentry since I have like zero presence on there. lol!
⠀⠀I am known on bundlrs for my urls which makes me paranoid and nervous loll… so I’ve been slowly becoming more and more anxious about coming onto this site aha…
⠀06.19.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀I wonder how many people actually read the entries I put here hmm… also wow like 4 more people than when i last updated! Hii! I’ve been in a more positive headspace lately so let’s hope it stays like this ^^
⠀⠀The times that I am in a more normal headspace are few and far between so I hope everyone around me enjoys it lol!!
⠀06.24.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀"Manic" episode is over awhhgag 😞
important
⠀06.26.25⠀⠀.⠀⠀I can’t keep track of every single one of my urls and I know that. That still doesn’t give anyone the right to do whatever the hell they want. This is the behavior that made me start associating this site with anxiety and paranoia.
⠀⠀Again, if you have a problem with me let’s talk it out, my discords are @magiapple or @boydere. And let’s not do petty things because I do not know what your problem with me even is!!
⠀⠀And, again, if you want a url of mine talk with me about it. My contact for this is my Atabook. In recent times I have been trying to downsize my count via selling at minimum 5-8 urls at a time with no real limit for Nitro or Prof decor. I also used to actively give out urls before I became more paranoid with whoever got them.
⠀⠀I am sorry that I prioritize my health over decorating urls on a site being held together by elmer’s glue and a dream but I beg that you have the kindness in your heart to just not be a prick about it
⠀⠀Realistically I also just don’t have the time to go through every paste and transfer ownership + ecs Because again I have a life outside of this site called trying to not shoot myself in the face